When you are feeling down, you don’t like seeing other people be successful. In fact, you start hoping that your friends and families suffer though hard times. That way you don’t have to be put through the jealousy of seeing them succeed and be happier than you are. Then hating the world really starts to make sense, because you want the world the fail. The world failing while you stay stagnant is almost like succeeding. I guess what I’m getting to is, I think I understand what they guy who wrote the Book of Revelation was going through. He was just super emo.”
— Me, just now, to myself
Genesis 38: 8-10
Then Judah said to Onan, “Sleep with your brother’s wife and fulfill your duty to her as a brother-in-law to raise up offspring for your brother.” But Onan knew that the child would not be his; so whenever he slept with his brother’s wife, he spilled his semen on the ground to keep from providing offspring for his brother. What he did was wicked in the LORD’s sight; so the LORD put him to death also.
So when Jacob came in from the fields that evening, Leah went out to meet him. “You must sleep with me,” she said. “I have hired you with my son’s mandrakes.” So he slept with her that night.
After putting him to sleep on her lap, she called for someone to shave off the seven braids of his hair, and so began to subdue him. And his strength left him.